Thursday, April 2, 2009
I am singing to the God who brings redemption to the Nations
Have you ever seen death? Not the person laying in the casket at the funeral, not the person who just died before you walked in to see them for the last time, I mean really SEE death? Jacob and I got there and were able to go back to the ICU with the whole family, we watched Uncle Ron take his last breath. I mean this in the most real sense you can imagine. His breaths weren't good at all when we got there, and when he took his last breath, it was the most surreal experience of my life. We watched them take the masks off, I wanted to say, wait doesn't he need that? We watched them turn all the machines off. We watched Aunt Visa (his wife) cry as she looked upon her dead husband. We watched his daughter cry. We waited until Dutchie (his son and Jacob's friend) could get there, no he was not there when his father passed. We watched police officers weap (Uncle Ron was a sheriff for 30 years). We watched his mother try to keep his mouth shut even though it wouldn't close. I am numb, I am broken, I am sad, I am crying. I have never seen someone die. I am dealing with that today. I woke up to hear the sound of my tears as I realize what happened again last night. I broke down in the hospital, because that could possibly by my father one day. I called him to let him know that I loved him and would be here in a few years possibly watching him take his last breath if he doesn't quit smoking. I am visibly and emotionally shaken at this whole thing. I also get a call from Lauryn saying that our friend Samantha's boyfriend passed away yesterday morning as well, he was only 27. So my face is stained again with tears for Samantha. I love her and can not believe she is having to go through this at 22 years old. Today I would rather be at home in my bed with my cats either sleeping or crying like I want to do, but am trying not to because I am work. It's hard.
God you are in control of all of this. It is so hard not to be angry but I am trying. I love you, who you are what you are and how you will gain Glory out of these situations.
SORROW
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About Me
- Ashlie Gremillion Bourgeois
- Louisiana, United States
- I am Ashlie and I am married to the man of my dreams! It is amazing to know God was thinking of me when he created Jacob. We have three cats together who are our babies! I love the Lord, my friends and family more than words can express. I am a happy woman who is extremely thankful for all she has.
3 comments:
You're right, life is precious, and we tend to let insignificant things cloud our views on the ones we love. We get caught up on the business of life, sometimes just doing what we want with our lives. But God has us here for a purpose and once He feels that we have fulfilled that purpose, He calls His own home. The only thing I can stand by, make sure you know where you are going when that day arrives. I want to stand in the throne room of God hearing, "enter my good and faithful servant."
Let me know if you need me, Ashlie. I love you.
Ashlie im so sorry about yalls lost. and you know maybe god had you in that room to watch him return to god so you can help your father. we all have a purpose in life we may not know what he wants us to do, but maybe this is your sign of your purpose. I love you and jacob so much and if you need something please let me know
In all the sorrow that has come to you threw these incidents remember God has a reason for everything and maybe just maybe God is trying more and more to get people to realize the reality of that fact that life is not promised it is not guaranteed, and you only take your next breath b/c God says so..
I'll be praying for you and that Gods peace rest on you and the families..
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